A million things

As my time here is winding down I am starting to have mixed feelings...about everything. This weekend I have sort of been reevaluating my life. Being here in Spain has definitely got me thinking and I have reached conclusions that have ended up being very different from the ones I'd had when I graduated last year. It's hard to believe that I've almost come full circle and just about this time last year I was escaping with Mylah to Texas and planning just how Jess and I were going to skip Easter Sunday that year. Then I was sure that after going to Spain I'd return home to Washington for a fraction of a second only to leave again and find work somewhere "back east", TN or maybe even AR. Now after being away from my nieces and family for so long I have begun to feel that I am still not ready to leave the Northwest just yet. I am tired of missing holidays and birthdays and having to be told about everyones lives, I want to be there again, to be part of them. I want to be home for all of the occasions, even the little ones. I don't want people to tell me how big Mya and Javian have gotten I want to see it for myself. I'm sure after some time goes by I'll begin to start to feel anxious and like I need to be somewhere else, but now I'm not so sure I would be happy being ThAt far. I still really like the idea of moving to Portland someday, but really what all this depends on is where I can find a job :)

Back to Spanish things; now that we're down to crunch time, stepping back and looking in I'm sure Claire, KK, and I look very silly scrambling to try to fill every weekend we have left with something memorable like going to Valencia to see the fallas or (trying to get) to Italy for Easter. There are lots of things about Spain I'll miss...This really has been a good experience, fulfilling, not in all ways, but still good. 

Mom pointed out to me, I didn't really write about her being here...We had lots of fun over those very short two weeks and saw a lot! Anyways, she was telling me that she observed how very easy it would be for ones faith to become stagnant here and after reevaluating my spiritual state in comparison to this last summer and where it is now I believe she has "hit the nail on the head". This summer after going on the Venezuela mission trip and being home and back with "my" church I was on fire and focused, but now I feel like I am in a spiritual hole and I like I have just been waiting inactively for my next spiritual high rather than pursuing one. I hadn't been reading my bible like I should...basically Mom being here was such a good thing for me spiritually. She really opened my eyes back up to what was happening to me so slowly that I myself wasn't noticing.

Onto a less heavy subject, there is a new boy at school who was born in London to Spanish parents and has lived in Ireland the last five years. He is a true bilingual! That seems so great and something that I really want for my kids...the only downfalls I can see would be a) having to live so far away from my family for FIVE YEARS and also I'm sure it must be really hard to throw a child into a language they don't really know like that. He seems happy though, I think he was hoping the school here would be bigger but..what can you do?

Until next time.