Sink or swim

Hmmm, where to start? It really hasn't been all that long since I last wrote, but I feel like a ton of time has passed. I have been to Valencia to see the fallas (fun but waaaaaay too loud, definitely a once in a lifetime experience that should stay that way even if you get a second chance but good all the same) as well as stay a few days with a lady from school and here daughter both of which I now love. For those who don't know what the fallas are, well let me explain, they are huge styrofoam (and other burnable material) statues based on different topics of importance in the news this year (the crisis is what I heard this years theme was but don't really know for sure) and they are B-E-A-Utiful. Well after a years worth of planning and making them then at midnight they burn them all up. It was sort of sad to watch all the work disappear in like twenty minutes, but the fireworks were really pretty. 

Then all of this week I have had Carissa here and been enjoying digging up my old self with her in that time. Having my Mom and her both here I have sort of found just how really disconnected I feel to the person I was last summer...and I'm not really sure I like this new person. I just feel like being here I can never fully be myself, like friends I've made here in reality have no idea who I am really. I can't be silly and often times it is unthinkably hard to be able to express EXACTLY how I feel at any given time or give clarification on things I say that could be misconstrued. Thankfully, Carissa has been reassuring me that the "old me" is still in here and that the way I feel now will change when I get back home...It's just weird that people always joke about someone being socially....lacking and now I feel like I truly am. Blah! Aside from all of that mess, I have enjoyed having her here and just that it's been so restful. The first day she cooked a ton for my roomie and I and then I took her to see the molinos (well Aurora took us) and then we went to Toledo yesterday...Hahaha, and sunbathed outside a cafe which was really silly but fun as well.

I have been finding myself more and more excited about the cruise, and just beach weather in general this year, which is incredibly out of character for me, but thankfully I'm feeling this way here because I heard it was snowing again in WA! 

-The End